It's the only way I can describe it.
Fifty pounds ago, I wanted to lose 10 pounds...now I NEED to lose 60. Plus I've developed high cholesterol.
Greeeeeeat.
How did this happen?
I like healthy foods. I love fruits and veggies. I'm happy to eat brown rice. (I have celiac, so grains can be a challenge, but I'm willing to try new things and do the best I can to incorporate them into my diet.) Rice cakes don't bother me. I love salads. Eating grilled chicken every day for dinner suits me just fine! Hummus and I get along like salt -n- pepper.
So....
Why am I HERE?
Two words: SWEET. TOOTH.
And it's a bad one. Just ask my dentist.
I crave sweets. They comfort me. When life seems stressful, I can pop a few too many and my world feels right again within seconds. I know, I know....why buy them? Aside from the fact that I am raising a child with type 1 diabetes and we keep several sources of fast acting sugars on hand to treat low blood sugars...basically because....I FEEL LIKE I NEED THEM!
See?
Sabotage.
I start every. single. day. with good intentions. Healthy breakfast. Count my points. (I'm failing at Weight Watchers -- because I'm not being accountable -- not because the program doesn't work.)
And then...around 10 am...
I'm hungry. I want something sweet. Or salty. Or just something to fill the void I feel because I've become such a mess. It's all downhill after that. I can't stop. I can't shake the cravings. I'm weak.
Yup. Sabotage.
Hey, you can do it. Never give up! You never know which 'start' will be the last one. Keep trying and you will get there :)
ReplyDeleteWhen you figure out how to kick the sweets craving, call me!
ReplyDeleteI start over every single day. So depressing.
Good luck on a better tomorrow :)
Hey! I'm new to diet blogging too. I'm halfway through my journey, but I know too well what you mean by sabatoge. I've previously lost about fifty pounds, only to gain them back for no good reason.
ReplyDeleteWhat I found is that it's really tough to start, but once you do, your success will breed more success. The beat advice I can offer is to just get on a scale, and don't think of the number as bad, think of it as your starting point on the way to healthy and thin.
Also, in the beginning, I always treat myself to whatever delicious and expensive veggies and healthy things I want. That way, I kickstart my weight loss while feeling treated, not deprived.
Good luck!
I just typed this HUGE comment...and blogger is being an ass. Damn it.
ReplyDeleteI'll just do the short version of my message: NEVER GIVE UP! Want it and you'll win it. Trust me...I am sporting the mother of all sweet teeth.
Dust yourself off and throw yourself back into the journey to health!!
ReplyDeleteMy nemesis is also anything sweet.
You can do it!!
You CAN do this...my suggestion (and that's all it is but i'm saying it cause i've done and am doing it so i'm speaking from experience) is in order to kick that sugar/carb habit/addiction is to cold turkey it...no sugar, no grains, no legumes, only meat, veg, some fruits and plenty of nuts, seeds and healthy fats...it will suck the first few days but once you achieve it you will feel SO much better and you WILL be able to say goodbye to all the crap. I promise...regardless of how you decide to do this, you are strong and you CAN do it. NEVER GIVE UP!!!!!
ReplyDeleteHang in there. Karin is right - the carbs of white flour especially, as well as rice, turn right into sugar when digested. If you are a long distance runner, then great. If you are a normal person, not so great. Combine carbs/sugar with fat, and your opiate receptors in your brain are stimulated. Did you know McDonald's puts SUGAR in their fries for this reason?
ReplyDeleteIt's a bummer but I am with Karin when she says to Cold Turkey it. No soda, no sugar, no carbs at all, and stick w/meat and veggies. Even eggs and fats are OK if you minimize the carb.
It is white bread that has been challenging for me to let go of. Still, if it's all turning to sugar, then I'll have a piece of cake vs. white bread!
Best of luck!